How Do You Love?

I saw the starless look in your eyes.
I saw you were sad,so I sang you lullabies.
About space,the universe and planets.

About your beautiful moonlight shine.
I turned my head around and admired your glow.
The glow you have even if there is snow.

Your voice sounded like an angelic lullaby the day you confessed to me.
My heart fluttered and I told you I will never leave.
And you told me all I have to do is believe.

With gentle words,you made my happiness grow.
And when you are with me,I see your presence glow.
An aura,shiny ,sparkly like gold.

A smile,more valueable than diamonds.
And I hoped this feeling may never end.
I feel happy,I feel myself fly.

With angel wings,I wrote your name in the night sky.
And I love you,i can't deny.
Because you made me feel something I had never felt.

You kissed me hard,and my heart started to melt.
Then,you let go, as we stared into eachother's eyes.
Your eyes,blue and beautiful like the skies.

And my eyes,blue like the ocean synchronise.
I feel our life flash before my eyes.
I see us getting married on a sunny honeymoon.

Dancing love tango on a bright red moon.
I fall into your embrace,as we are both swoon.

 “Let me confess before I depart this Earth
Without your love I’ll truly hurt,
 “Making my life empty and uncomfortable
Because you’re the missing piece that makes my puzzle whole,

“When our flesh is one for that brief moment
My physical love you erotically own it,
 “Sealed at the waist looking at you face-to-face
Lips not touching as my breath you taste,

 “Your captivating moans are like a Siren’s song
That grip and pulsate all night long,
 “Inch by inch-consuming my giving will
Sending through my body that satisfying chill,

 “Keeping my emotions on a roll-so my psyche don’t unfold
Liquid gold, because unknowingly my soul you have a hold,
 “That endless clutch, across the borders of time
Not even letting go-after me dying,

 “There’s nothing I would not do to keep your love
Sleep on a razor blade rug or let a vampire drain me of blood,
 “Until I’m a dead hollow worthless shell
But I will always break free from the gates of Heaven or Hell,

 “Stabbing my guardian angel through the heart
Fighting Asmodeous and his demon hoard in the pitch dark,
 “Euthanizing all the animals on Noah’s Ark
Setting the Garden of Eden ablaze with a spark,

 “Looking at the destruction of Sodom and Gomorrah
Because for your love I’ll overcome the cursed horror,
 “Minor obstacles I would battle through
Just to be eternally with you”.

I sense her shadow drawing near,
Sweaty palms in the cool night air,
Her steps rise softly up the stair,
A spark ignites, pulling me near, yet I fear.

My knees give way, whispering “Surrender,”
Years of this dance, both joy and dread,
A heartbeat teeters on a thin thread,
Love feels so strong, but my heart is tender.

How steady beats this heart through strife,
It falters at times, yet yearns for more,
Caught in the joy, but scared to explore,
This love is both thrill and a risk to life.

My arms feel weak from the long embrace,
Unsure if it’s defeat or grace I feel,
In this tender war, emotions are real,
Where love’s sweet pull meets fear’s tight brace.

With every glance, that tingle grows inside,
Her scent wraps around me, a call I know,
It fills the air, makes my heart overflow,
Yet I tremble at the depth where I might hide.

Yet here I stand, with nowhere left to fall,
No chair to catch me, just the ground below,
This dizzying height, love’s rhythm is slow,
A wild ride where fear and passion enthrall.

Every heartbeat carries weight and scar,
A choice to leap into love’s warm sway,
To breathe the fire, but fear what may,
Knowing this path can lead both near and far.

Tell me,am I going crazy.
Am I mad,insane?
Because I want somebody near me.
 
Someone to say my name.
I wonder if I'm just afraid.
Or are my feelings just not straight?
 
I want somebody to light my soul in flames.
And exchange loving glances on picture frames.
So give this to me now,I can't wait no more.
 
Give me that can't sleep love.
And give me someone who loves me hard.
The love I think about and daydream all day.
 
And follows me into my thoughts at night.
The one,that makes life worth living.
And gives me confidence to fight.
 
Maybe I just seem picky.
I am not in the world you are in.
I am here for the feeling.
 
That longing,one of a kind.
I am tired of dreaming of none.
And I need somebody next to mine.
 
In our embrace,cuddling all night.
So give me that can't sleep love.
Kissing under a dark,moonlit night.
 
Spend time together,never fight.
Watching horror movies on a late night.
Under blankets,shadows unite.
 
So somebody light my heart on fire.
Make me fall harder,fly higher.
Almost a sugar high.
 
When you say all of those sweet things.
It feels like we are the only beings alive.
Kissing under moonlight,movies in a late night.
 
Is what gives you will to fight.
Not feeling lonely on a cold,starry night.
So once again,let me say,I can't wait no more.
 
Give me love,confidence and will to fight.
Find my missing puzzle piece.
Give me the can't sleep love.
 
We'll be together on a sunny day.
And chase the dark clouds and thoughts away.
I will meet the one someday.
 
He could already be here for all I know.
Happy daydreams,desires flow.

When I love
It's with my whole heart
Because I'm  all in
From the very start

I have flown at a velocity unknown to man
Steering the fastest vessel amidst the stars
I felt the gravitational pull of her constellation
Then captured it through poems and memoirs

I caressed the surface of her burning suns
In colors and emotions not known to men
Then coded my verse to relish and reminisce
On my travels of a universe that has no end
      
I have experienced phenomenal sensations
Wayfaring through space seeing the sights
At speeds only known to a cosmic renegade
Witnessing the lights up close in the winter sky

In truth, she is my Taurus and I her Gemini
Brought together, whether by fate or by chance
For I’ve lived and longed and loved in light years
Further than any man can traverse the expanse

In the sacred moments when affection is most deeply expressed,
I celebrate all that is, or was, or might one day be.
But, my love is birthed from the meeting of two impure souls.

One has honest eyes, bright and clear
but her mind carries images of brokenness.
My mind is clouded with ambition,
intoxicated with desires to know what is most sacred to her.

Yes, I love her, but lust weighs heavily
and must be dealt with in ways that pass for affection.
In her smile I see kindness, but also lips that bring pleasure.
In her eyes I see a hopes, but clouded by her wish for caution.
Tasting the bitter of body powder, I rest my face against her warmth,
surrendering to breasts that will one day nourish her offspring.

I feel her eyes on mine as our finale arrives.
She reads my face with sadness as she receives
something less than true love.

Our bodies cease their striving and fold like fallen trees
uprooted by a shared storm. In the silence,
I feel the urge to speak.
I mouth the words, "I'm sorry,"
but the light is dim, and I catch myself.
"I love you," I say to the faceless shadow in front of me.

I want to be possessive of you.
Reminding you how much I want you,
in my life,
and in my space.

There is a desperation to cry out:

"YOU ARE MINE."

"You are mine."



Picture the life I see for us,
see it the same way I do.

Long car rides,
holding your hand,
sun-coated mornings,
quiet evenings.

It's a little mundane,
I know.
Yet it's all I want in the world.


You.


With me.


And each scene plays over in my head,
pushing me through the day.

I'm not sure about the word love,
but I know that
every thought with you,
is bathed in a warm yellow-orange glow.