Poetry competition CLOSED 24th January 2019 5:42pm
WINNER
snugglebuck
snugglebuck
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life in high school
Anonymous
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Scribbles
You don’t understand
And you never will
What it’s like to be cheated off
That work is not just work
It is not just scribbles
I conjured using magic
That work
Spells out hours of frustration
Days of crying in anger at my own confusion
Arguments and debates
Self hatred slicing deeper than a blade
Terrifying times, when I am so sure I will never understand
Never grasp this concept
To some, it is life and death
For those scribbles on a page
I almost killed myself
Multiple times
I was so desperate
To either succeed and master
Or end my life because if I didn’t
Then my one purpose in life
Was ruined
And wasted
And I deserved death
And yet you come
Waltzing to me
Making me uncomfortable
As you feign innocence
Even as you hold my life
Over my head in a noose
Asking O so innocently
What I got for the answer
As if you knew
As if you had tried
As if you had died for these scribbles
Like I have
And you never will
What it’s like to be cheated off
That work is not just work
It is not just scribbles
I conjured using magic
That work
Spells out hours of frustration
Days of crying in anger at my own confusion
Arguments and debates
Self hatred slicing deeper than a blade
Terrifying times, when I am so sure I will never understand
Never grasp this concept
To some, it is life and death
For those scribbles on a page
I almost killed myself
Multiple times
I was so desperate
To either succeed and master
Or end my life because if I didn’t
Then my one purpose in life
Was ruined
And wasted
And I deserved death
And yet you come
Waltzing to me
Making me uncomfortable
As you feign innocence
Even as you hold my life
Over my head in a noose
Asking O so innocently
What I got for the answer
As if you knew
As if you had tried
As if you had died for these scribbles
Like I have
Written by RobynRenee
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Hide School
Devastated by the slightest slight
Every rain seemed like a raging storm
Even a pimple was a catastrophic
Clearasil & Credence-Clear-Water-Revival
Were my allies in navigating
The locker lined hallways of my Hell
Every rain seemed like a raging storm
Even a pimple was a catastrophic
Clearasil & Credence-Clear-Water-Revival
Were my allies in navigating
The locker lined hallways of my Hell
Written by snugglebuck
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Pain to pay
Walking my ass home from secondary every day
In every way, I’m not merry,
I’m not very unaware, so I am wary what they say
Their commentary, what I’m wearing
How my hair is, What I say
Every mother fucker choose to give me bruises on face
I’ve been used for target practice so I’m acting up again
Mumma say
what’d you say to make them use you in that way
Mumma you don’t know a thing about the things I had to take
I’ve been kicked around and baited into places for their games
Had my body beaten, broken, bloody, swollen, cut and grazed
I know to many this is normal but to me I was amazed
How human beings could conceive of treating anyone this way
Like they’re entertained by letting all the air out of my wheels
So I’m pushing it up hill
My only speedy getaway would get deflated everyday
My sense of safety has been killed
I don’t give a flying fuck if this was their idea of thrills
This shit had me punching pillows, growing up to popping pills
So imma kill, every beat, for every time they beat my body
Turn this chill, little hobby to a money making project
I got honest story telling, many flows, and don’t forget
My lyrical ability would make Rakim short of breath
In every way, I’m not merry,
I’m not very unaware, so I am wary what they say
Their commentary, what I’m wearing
How my hair is, What I say
Every mother fucker choose to give me bruises on face
I’ve been used for target practice so I’m acting up again
Mumma say
what’d you say to make them use you in that way
Mumma you don’t know a thing about the things I had to take
I’ve been kicked around and baited into places for their games
Had my body beaten, broken, bloody, swollen, cut and grazed
I know to many this is normal but to me I was amazed
How human beings could conceive of treating anyone this way
Like they’re entertained by letting all the air out of my wheels
So I’m pushing it up hill
My only speedy getaway would get deflated everyday
My sense of safety has been killed
I don’t give a flying fuck if this was their idea of thrills
This shit had me punching pillows, growing up to popping pills
So imma kill, every beat, for every time they beat my body
Turn this chill, little hobby to a money making project
I got honest story telling, many flows, and don’t forget
My lyrical ability would make Rakim short of breath
Written by Benzy_420
(BTheW)
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Non-entry since not new-
I found this in one of my actual journals, thought it'd help y'all get in the mood.
November 5, 2002, Senior Year-
Applications. College and
Applications. Chores and
Applications. Work and
Applications. School and
Applications. Friends and
Applications. Boys and
Applications. Mind.
Apply yourself.
I found this in one of my actual journals, thought it'd help y'all get in the mood.
November 5, 2002, Senior Year-
Applications. College and
Applications. Chores and
Applications. Work and
Applications. School and
Applications. Friends and
Applications. Boys and
Applications. Mind.
Apply yourself.
Scattered emotions
Started in the ninth grade
That's when a person is made
After it all started I was willing to trade anything just to get rid of the Pain.
Not a fucking game , no one to blame .
Feeling all that shame.
It's like a train of emotion.
I'm living life flowing with the motion
With all this commotion around me
I'm just trying to see through all that debris.
Can anyone help me towards who I really want to be and just let free?
Life is just a game of trying to live and not be plain or a different shade.
I'm just trying to stay sane.
Someone once told me not to change..
So I'm trying to rearrange.
Don't mess me up when I'm in a zone
I have a certain tone that keeps me flowing in my room alone.
Writing these rhymes because I'm in such hard times.
Now I can see clearly through these closed blinds.
Everyone has different views, different minds.
Some minds are crazy and commit crimes.
I just hear the constant sound of chimes.
My mind is so flooded.
Judgements got me feeling more and more cold blooded.
Living in the present
Even if your thoughts or life are feeling kind of bent,
I'm sure I can feel at home with many of them to some extent.
I surround myself with people I love and trust
and that is a must.
There's a difference between love and lust.
People look at me with disgust.
I don't know why I have to stay high so I don't start to cry.
A constant reminder of beauty is the blue sky and under the blue sky is a world so dry of good people & full of people that lie just to get by.
I write these flows and I do try.
I scream out my battlecry.
Willing to die and knowing one day I will have to say goodbye.
You must face your fear.
Don't drown it out with beer, it won't help you with the war you're trying to conquer for all of us queers.
One day it will all come through loud and clear.
You can she'd a tear on the way
But hey ,
Dontet that get in your way
Please don't fade away because if you aren't trying , might as well be dying.
But we're trying to keep our kind alive to keep our faces out of the news. Keep your heads up cause someone loves you.
I'm applying myself and thoughts to these songs while doing so I'm ripping bongs.
I'm trying to right all my wrongs.
Gotta stay strong.
I've been in this struggle for way too long
Not being able to be myself.
I was born in the wrong body.
Most people are just worried about going to the next party.
But sheesh , I can't wait to be free
My girl is so loyal I'll never cheat
She sees me for the real me.
So get me on that T.
Testosterone is gonna be flowing through my veins ,
Relieving my pain.
Going to the gym,
Seeing all them gains.
Loving all the strength I'll be recieving.
I'm sad on the inside
So don't let my smile fool you cause looks sure are decieving.
I'm finally going to be able to breathe.
Most people don't get it
"How could you wanna be a man?"
"Aren't you aware shit is gonna hit the fan?"
"People are gonna wanna throw you in the trash can"
But my heart's in one place and my mind in another
I feel bad for my sister , they're going to judge her.. all just because I want to be her brother.
I don't know whether or not I'm going to make it
Shedding some tears and everyone thought I was faking it.
I'm losing my mind & I can feel my heart breaking
Choosing to hide cause I can't feel anyone relating.
I got a smile but my emotions stay hiding
I'm trying to break free
Didn't think I'd still be talking about this at 23.
It's be a lie if I said I wasn't trying.
It's daytime but it's like the sun's not shining.
You don't want what it takes to be a g.
You're so wrong if you think you know me.
It's the pain you don't see my eyes are wide open cause I don't like to sleep.
But please believe me when I say I'm fine
Just leave me lonely like you did last time
And only God knows when it's time for me to die.
I refuse to be shy.
Nicholas Alexander is the name that I strive.
Hes been my day one , never leaves my side .
He's the only one that just sits back and vibes.
Positive vibrations.
I'm living in a fucked up situation.
I know who I am and this is where I stand.
Written by nicosworld
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spireling out of control
"no that's not good for us"
"oh, come on its just a blunt"
"fine"
that was the first time
now i hit it daily
i never thought that that was when
i first started failing
"but we're too young"
" come on, its just a kiss"
"fine"
now the theater department has seen too much
and my grades are slip'in
there is no control where there are no cameras
now shut up and slip that tongue in
"but what if my mom finds out?"
"its just a sip"
"fine"
now don't you shake my water bottle
cause you wont see no bubbles
no i don't see the problem,
but people make a hubub
but now its spinning out of control
I'm in a downward spiral
I've fallen into a hole
of my own design
"oh, come on its just a blunt"
"fine"
that was the first time
now i hit it daily
i never thought that that was when
i first started failing
"but we're too young"
" come on, its just a kiss"
"fine"
now the theater department has seen too much
and my grades are slip'in
there is no control where there are no cameras
now shut up and slip that tongue in
"but what if my mom finds out?"
"its just a sip"
"fine"
now don't you shake my water bottle
cause you wont see no bubbles
no i don't see the problem,
but people make a hubub
but now its spinning out of control
I'm in a downward spiral
I've fallen into a hole
of my own design
Written by yourdarkboi
(kersionix)
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Anonymous
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Glory Daze
I’m going back to those glory days,
That teenage phase,
Those olden times of mine I find with ease,
They were delightfully fun,
And since then they’ve never been outdone,
They are full of wonderful exciting memories.
I was a meek little band geek,
Who sometimes got lost in the volition,
But as discovered my skills and talents,
I found my voice as a musician.
I accomplished great things
With fellow members in the band,
And we made long lasting friendships
That even to this day still stand.
High school was more than just a journey,
It was a launching into tomorrow,
And now I look back with gratitude,
Thankful for both, they joy and the sorrow-
Because even though I had bouts of heartbreak,
It’s made me who I am today,
I learned to take the punches with stride,
It’s made me strong in many ways.
So to those high school days,
That teenage phase,
The glory daze that still reels in my mind,
I say to you,
Class of ‘92,
I still hold it all so dear after all this time.
I’m going back to those glory days,
That teenage phase,
Those olden times of mine I find with ease,
They were delightfully fun,
And since then they’ve never been outdone,
They are full of wonderful exciting memories.
I was a meek little band geek,
Who sometimes got lost in the volition,
But as discovered my skills and talents,
I found my voice as a musician.
I accomplished great things
With fellow members in the band,
And we made long lasting friendships
That even to this day still stand.
High school was more than just a journey,
It was a launching into tomorrow,
And now I look back with gratitude,
Thankful for both, they joy and the sorrow-
Because even though I had bouts of heartbreak,
It’s made me who I am today,
I learned to take the punches with stride,
It’s made me strong in many ways.
So to those high school days,
That teenage phase,
The glory daze that still reels in my mind,
I say to you,
Class of ‘92,
I still hold it all so dear after all this time.
