how much i need:

how do u forgive me my body

lovelorn
hate & irritation
ignited self-lust
a curl of smoke a flash of lightning
at midday
at sunrise
i see

it's how
u squeeze it
lip corners curl & drip
feed the blood-starving earth
with promises
coins & bargains

red lustre
breaking in the cup the crown
black ink on
an oiled tongue
this is mine; mine

the gods bend to please me

she is all heart
opened
glistening with caul
& her desire is to undo me

please,
& what have u found?

girl
i'm butchered flesh

i miss; i want;
& it's not u
but
-precious
opalescent control
over ur pure intention-
so easily
compelled