Paulajobi
Paula Jobi
Paula Jobi
Poem Published
2nd Jan 2025 1:56am
2nd Jan 2025 1:56am
My birthday breakdown last year...
My last breakdown....
...was my birthday 2023.
My father would have been 86.
I turned 49. I knew him less
than 6 months of my adult life.
My mother had kept us apart...
told each of us the other was dead...
this was before the Internet boomed.
Before we all had cell phones. All those lost years. Then he died. We shared a birthday.
We never got to share that birthday together. So, every year since '97 that day has haunted me. It was nothing special as a child...no presents...no cake! It COULD HAVE BEEN so special if Dad had...
...was my birthday 2023.
My father would have been 86.
I turned 49. I knew him less
than 6 months of my adult life.
My mother had kept us apart...
told each of us the other was dead...
this was before the Internet boomed.
Before we all had cell phones. All those lost years. Then he died. We shared a birthday.
We never got to share that birthday together. So, every year since '97 that day has haunted me. It was nothing special as a child...no presents...no cake! It COULD HAVE BEEN so special if Dad had...
#birthday
#MentalHealth
#nightmares
62 reads
6 Comments
NP_NP
Poem Published
31st Dec 2024 4:35pm
31st Dec 2024 4:35pm
Hellhounds
Hellhounds nipping at my heels, will I get away? I have seen the brilliance of heaven and the shadows of hell, but neither held any allure for me. In a haze of alcohol, I made a careless toast with a stranger, promising my soul for a taste of Bukowski’s infamy. I never imagined a demon would be eavesdropping on my drunken bravado. Let me recount the tale of why I abandoned whiskey. One night, after too much of it, I fell into a deep, restless sleep. I awoke to find myself in a strange, foreboding place. A demon, unmistakably so, stood before me. My eyes focused on a grim scene: a crematorium,...
#dreams
#evil
#horror
#nightmares
#shadows
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ThePalestRider
Poem Published
26th Dec 2024 3:44pm
26th Dec 2024 3:44pm
Jagged Carvings
I’ve seen it, by the dim lamp’s glow, I’ve seen it
Totem speaks truths no man seen writ
I bow to whispers, spectral and vast
My limbs grow cold; this trance shall last
The walls dissolve—oh, what madness reveals!
The mind unfurls, its ancient seals
The red sigils glow, their meaning I glean
Too late, I know—no man should have seen
I believe I shall perish, by knowledge undone
Yet in this dream, I am the one
I saw the carvings, etched by hands long decayed
Marks of old dreamers, their warnings betrayed
Symbols crawl and shift...
Totem speaks truths no man seen writ
I bow to whispers, spectral and vast
My limbs grow cold; this trance shall last
The walls dissolve—oh, what madness reveals!
The mind unfurls, its ancient seals
The red sigils glow, their meaning I glean
Too late, I know—no man should have seen
I believe I shall perish, by knowledge undone
Yet in this dream, I am the one
I saw the carvings, etched by hands long decayed
Marks of old dreamers, their warnings betrayed
Symbols crawl and shift...
#curse
#dreams
#night
#nightmares
#sleep
50 reads
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Lilliputian
Poem Published
25th Dec 2024 9:48pm
25th Dec 2024 9:48pm
My Monster
When the dark hours rang,
I remained inside,
Locked away from the danger,
Breathing behind doors,
As my parents had warned
To be safe,
Embraced in my blanket, I slept.
While claws crept from beneath the bed,
Where my monster hid,
The one my parents had left,
To rest at ease.
I lay engulfed in my sheets,
Waiting for the promised tricks,
That carved out my nightmares.
I remained inside,
Locked away from the danger,
Breathing behind doors,
As my parents had warned
To be safe,
Embraced in my blanket, I slept.
While claws crept from beneath the bed,
Where my monster hid,
The one my parents had left,
To rest at ease.
I lay engulfed in my sheets,
Waiting for the promised tricks,
That carved out my nightmares.
#betrayal
#childhood
#fear #nightmares
#fear #nightmares
120 reads
Vision_of_insanity
Poem Published
24th Dec 2024 1:00pm
24th Dec 2024 1:00pm
Come One, Come All
Welcome to a place you have never seen before
A place that you will find seems so familiar
You see, the grizzly truth is that this place has always been
It always has and always will be all within
Right this way I'll be your guide
Through the darkest reaches of your mind
Soon you'll see what it's like inside
Everything you've always tried to hide
Don't you fret, don't close your eyes
You've had this coming for a very long time
Don't you worry, it will all be fine
After all, everybody here wants to die
All within,...
A place that you will find seems so familiar
You see, the grizzly truth is that this place has always been
It always has and always will be all within
Right this way I'll be your guide
Through the darkest reaches of your mind
Soon you'll see what it's like inside
Everything you've always tried to hide
Don't you fret, don't close your eyes
You've had this coming for a very long time
Don't you worry, it will all be fine
After all, everybody here wants to die
All within,...
#dark
#evil
#fear
#nightmares
#scary
102 reads
9 Comments
LunaDahlia
Poem Published
24th Dec 2024 4:41am
24th Dec 2024 4:41am
Down the Rabbit Hole Of My Trauma And Nightmares
#abuse
#nightmares
#suffering #PTSD
#suffering #PTSD
39 reads
2 Comments
oldmanG
Poem Published
23rd Dec 2024 4:32am
23rd Dec 2024 4:32am
Never be Better
There is a strong sense it’ll never be better
Not feeling bound by time or anything
Trying to fit into this madness we’re all living in
Ghosts are chasing me where do i run to
The bottom of the bottle numbs what i truly feel
Stayin in the zone of zombies trying to to break free of what’s killing me
The overall effect is truly the end game 3 is the answer the question is the same
Strong sense it’ll never be better
Country of immigrants with a tall Green Lady
Torch n Flame
Give me tired and scared and too poor to...
Not feeling bound by time or anything
Trying to fit into this madness we’re all living in
Ghosts are chasing me where do i run to
The bottom of the bottle numbs what i truly feel
Stayin in the zone of zombies trying to to break free of what’s killing me
The overall effect is truly the end game 3 is the answer the question is the same
Strong sense it’ll never be better
Country of immigrants with a tall Green Lady
Torch n Flame
Give me tired and scared and too poor to...
#dreams
#hope
#nightmares
60 reads
0 Comments
dartford
Paul S...
Paul S...
Poem Published
22nd Dec 2024 1:06am
22nd Dec 2024 1:06am
same streets
mid victorian london saw dickens
at night pacing the streets, the same streets
I used to walk in the dark
and lonely moments I couldn’t sleep
at night pacing the streets, the same streets
I used to walk in the dark
and lonely moments I couldn’t sleep
#city
#nightmares
65 reads
2 Comments
Paulajobi
Paula Jobi
Paula Jobi
Poem Published
19th Dec 2024 6:28pm
19th Dec 2024 6:28pm
Nightmare Rules
What do you do...
when you cause...
your own fucking
NIGHTMARE?
I wrote about
the horrific
death of...
BOBBY!
He lost his
freaking
head...
LITERALLY!
In my nightmare...
Bobby's head was
rolling around...
FOLLOWING ME!
Nobody gave 2 shits...
that his head was
In every store at
THE FUCKING MALL!
It was a dream in my
head and I caused it
by imagining Bobby...
GROWN UP AND FUCKING ME!
Then I wrote about his
unexplained decapitation ...
when you cause...
your own fucking
NIGHTMARE?
I wrote about
the horrific
death of...
BOBBY!
He lost his
freaking
head...
LITERALLY!
In my nightmare...
Bobby's head was
rolling around...
FOLLOWING ME!
Nobody gave 2 shits...
that his head was
In every store at
THE FUCKING MALL!
It was a dream in my
head and I caused it
by imagining Bobby...
GROWN UP AND FUCKING ME!
Then I wrote about his
unexplained decapitation ...
#dark
#memories
#nightmares
84 reads
4 Comments
PAR
Poem Published
18th Dec 2024 11:44am
18th Dec 2024 11:44am
empty night
That's how I did it to you
very slowly
without rambling
That's how I did it
calmly
with an open hand for you
That everything, like this, without end
no return
no sleep, no sleep, no sleep
all night without sleep
without the blessing of silence
in the palms of my hands
What everything, like this, like this, like this
like the spinning of a top
that comes to an end
sleepless, like this, sleepless, like this
without rambling
very slowly
That's always how I did it
without knowing what I was doing ...
very slowly
without rambling
That's how I did it
calmly
with an open hand for you
That everything, like this, without end
no return
no sleep, no sleep, no sleep
all night without sleep
without the blessing of silence
in the palms of my hands
What everything, like this, like this, like this
like the spinning of a top
that comes to an end
sleepless, like this, sleepless, like this
without rambling
very slowly
That's always how I did it
without knowing what I was doing ...
#anxiety
#dreams
#night
#nightmares
#sleep
91 reads
8 Comments
PAR
Poem Published
16th Dec 2024 11:51am
16th Dec 2024 11:51am
Quicksand
Two souls dance in grace and harmony
over the quicksand in the cold night.
Each step is a risk, a flirtation with the abyss,
in the back and forth of destiny
looking for the earthquake.
Eyes to eyes and the fear dissolves
while the treacherous earth beneath revolves.
Hands that hold on to a fragile link.
Dancing on uncertainty, challenging luck.
They move lightly in rhythm.
As if sand were sacred solid ground.
In every turn, an unspoken promise,
In a tight hug, salvation is blessed.
Below, the sand calls, in a...
over the quicksand in the cold night.
Each step is a risk, a flirtation with the abyss,
in the back and forth of destiny
looking for the earthquake.
Eyes to eyes and the fear dissolves
while the treacherous earth beneath revolves.
Hands that hold on to a fragile link.
Dancing on uncertainty, challenging luck.
They move lightly in rhythm.
As if sand were sacred solid ground.
In every turn, an unspoken promise,
In a tight hug, salvation is blessed.
Below, the sand calls, in a...
#dance
#dark
#dreams
#mirror
#nightmares
101 reads
8 Comments
Paulajobi
Paula Jobi
Paula Jobi
Poem Published
12th Dec 2024 10:03pm
12th Dec 2024 10:03pm
Everyone Loved Me
#abuse
#dark
#death
#horror
#nightmares
53 reads
1 Comment
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