Let Us Begin

Fall down seven times, get up eight
This time I swear I won't make a mistake
Brace myself for a bumpy ride
Prepare to open the doors that lead inside
 
Issues knock at the door then come rushing in
They prod and they poke and say "let us begin"
I'm a little girl now, only eight years old
Still don't understand why I never told
 
Fell in love with a girl in my sixteenth year
Wrote it all in my journal every hope, every fear
I came home from school on a normal day
My mother sat at the table reading away
 
The whole world must have heard her shout
Take your school bag and get the hell out
I never want to see your face again
You disgust me child, you are one of them
 
I quit school and got a job down at the Bar
Thought I could save all my money, planned to go far
Met so many strangers at the bar late at night
Now alone in the world, I got caught up in the life
 
Tequila for breakfast, chased with a purple pill
The lines and the joints, I hunted every thrill
The party is over but you still remain
Left holding my addiction and writhing in pain
 
So many years spent filled with anger and rage
Blamed the whole world for my emotional cage
It has taken fall after fall but now I finally see
What went wrong in my life was always Me.