suicide

There is an option your not seeing. Its to make the choice to work toward a future where your clean and can be in his life again. Death is an end game that cant be taken back. He has a life time ahead of him and this but a small part. There are plays, school functions, middle school, proms, dating, graduations, birthdays, there are so many thing to want to live and see and there is all the time in the world to get back in his life. Dont rob home of the joy of bring able to share those with you. Do the work to get back in his life in the long haul. There are rooms full of people in the same boat helping each other get their lives back. I know i am in those rooms its called Narcotics annonamous and AA. You are in my prayers

i know the pain of having people leave when you love them but there is another option other than death ive considered it many times but its not worth it killing your self lets the other person win.

i can relate to this

Live for your child. In my prayers.

So when ppl say they are going threw reason he is not woth me is not because of me using i didnt start that until after the fact. Yes i have smoke weed or pills but not major. done things i regret. But i never once deserved to be treared the way i have by my mother. She has made it impossible for me to see or talk yo him because of me annd here differences she uses him to punish me if i say ordo something she doesbt like. Even of it doest affect him. Mental abuse my whole life. i dislike when ppl
say there going threw the same thing and kno how
u fell. Honestly u dont. Id switch u places for a day.

Cant relate at all, but just trying to say there is a lot of time and life to be lived beyond the now!

I really thank you for wise words tho. Its keep in my hwart.

Zoe