me vs me

in the deepest molecular structure of my heart
lies an unforseen force, so incredible it contracts
my veins and conquers my thoughts.

in the thought space of my mind,
lie residues of memories from lives past

within the brightest glow of my soul
lie the chants of good intent

but

the morbid cry rises when anger infringes a mnemonic notion
the brightest glow of my soul consumed
by the shadows of impulsive rage
something so free, becomes caged, raped and humiliated.

why does my stomach hold the turmoil of the earths melting core
why does anger arise to destroy a peace within me?

i try to be good, to be a child of tranquility, and
the battle between the dark and light
shudders my very existance

i want to be at peace
i want to burn and bury the ashes of my rage
to live in complete serenity,
i want to love the essence of my inner being

but something saffocates enligtenment
a material hindrance
a
notion that its too good to be true
something evil lingers in the shadow of my light

something wants to eat me rotton

so i pray for the demons be gone
but never forgotton.