Hopeless

I've seen blood rain from the skies.
I've seen the light leave their eyes.
The sounds of pain and fear as I hear their last cries.
I've walked through the darkness.
I've chased after the light.
I never make it there for it always leaves my sight.
The shadow overtakes.  
The darkness is drowning me.
I see now that it's the blood of all the ghosts I see.
The blood of those I could have saved,
only to turn my back.
The blood of those I killed,
of the number I've lost track.
My time here is lost,
never to be found.
The cries of their souls my only constant sound.
I will keep on going,
Keep on chasing the elusive light.
If it means my loved ones can be saved,
then to my last breath I will fight.
The shadows say it's pointless,
everyone dies in the end.
I won't let it take them.  
On this, I will not bend.
I don't know to who I say this,
to the shadows or myself.
I must be rid of all my doubt,  
all of these thoughts I must shelf.
The shadows know my thoughts.
They know my doubts and fears.
They play scenes in my head that'd bring any man to tears.
I watch my friends die.
I watch my family burn.
My only hope is that the shadows will finally give me my turn.


It will never happen...