Oh it's been awhile

11 months , almost a year.
I haven't touched it.
I haven't used it.
Last time I did this?
Oh its been awhile.

That silver blade
It's so shiny,
Yet so addicting.
Last time i did this?
Oh its been awhile.

My scarless wrists
Have now become scared.
I can't help but watch the blood flow.
Last time I did this ?
Oh its been awhile.

Self harm.
I've avoided it for so long,
But here I am having a lapse.
Last time I did this?
Oh it's been awhile.