Abandoned

From a boy to a man
in a single day    
Now you say  
you don't want to stay
    
You colour your version
of what happened back then    
You abandoned me
you are about to do it again    
   
Brothers and sisters
left with a hole    
That can only be filled
with the light of your soul
    
Your struggle will end
not on this day    
What makes you think god
won't turn you away?    
   
Failure is surrender
it leaves you weak    
Death will not give you
the salvation you seek
    
You can Stay and fight
anyone can run    
Clean up your mess
your damage undone    
   
I can give you so many reasons
you need to be here    
So many reasons
not to lose to your fear
    
Why cant you see
it's not just your life?    
So much will be lost
A mother, my wife    
   
You leave all your kin
an incomplete heart    
The blame and the guilt
sure to tear us apart
    
Maybe you will come back
as somebody free    
A stranger in the park
that won't recognise me.