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Damn Sam..Smh Damn
December 27, 2012
Not many smiles today...just kidding ☺
Lesson # I have lost count!
Being imaginarily in love with the new Jay, aka Sam Jerome Milligan Jr was the start of a weird day.
I mean, our birthdays are not far from the other and we are definitely exactly alike. And we seem to have butt heads all the time.
Most of the reasons are because of me ofcourse.
Once I have had a taste of the difference in life, I seemed to have been thinking twice on being treated super kindly lol.
But that’s just a lie, we love the same, it’s just that my love is in a different game.
I didn’t expect to find the “love of my life”, just a friend for life.
But I see now that what I have been asking for in life came to me at the right time.
My feelings just happen to be with someone else right now.
It’s not like I didn’t try, or say what was on my mind.
He just had me feeling guilty every time.
I didn’t tell him to stay; literally at least, but I apologized for every time I felt confused.
Bluised; I feel like he’s been used by my heart but I didn’t try to do that. I didn’t want this to end like that.
Once you push a person too far, you both end with scars and they don’t go too far.
Steadily fading, but doesn’t fully leave. Yeah, maybe no one else notices their not fully gone, but you know where they were and they still sit with you trying to vanish them forever.
Yet they never leave...
I hope I am not that scar sitting on his heart, waiting to be vanished, but merely a blessing and a lesson to show what’s really right for him
Maybe I wasn’t right for him, and he wasn’t right for me.
We need two different things AT THE TIME, and maybe I will come to my senses one day when he will be long gone.
Still his love means a lot to me.
Because he is me; just a more connected person than me.
I’m still discovering what attracts me.
Only the Lord knows what is right for me, and he is not the one for me.
So I am going to keep praying and living and hoping to find that love just right for me, hopefully with the person that’s currently with me...
But if not, guess I’ll just keep doing me. ☺
Kb
Not many smiles today...just kidding ☺
Lesson # I have lost count!
Being imaginarily in love with the new Jay, aka Sam Jerome Milligan Jr was the start of a weird day.
I mean, our birthdays are not far from the other and we are definitely exactly alike. And we seem to have butt heads all the time.
Most of the reasons are because of me ofcourse.
Once I have had a taste of the difference in life, I seemed to have been thinking twice on being treated super kindly lol.
But that’s just a lie, we love the same, it’s just that my love is in a different game.
I didn’t expect to find the “love of my life”, just a friend for life.
But I see now that what I have been asking for in life came to me at the right time.
My feelings just happen to be with someone else right now.
It’s not like I didn’t try, or say what was on my mind.
He just had me feeling guilty every time.
I didn’t tell him to stay; literally at least, but I apologized for every time I felt confused.
Bluised; I feel like he’s been used by my heart but I didn’t try to do that. I didn’t want this to end like that.
Once you push a person too far, you both end with scars and they don’t go too far.
Steadily fading, but doesn’t fully leave. Yeah, maybe no one else notices their not fully gone, but you know where they were and they still sit with you trying to vanish them forever.
Yet they never leave...
I hope I am not that scar sitting on his heart, waiting to be vanished, but merely a blessing and a lesson to show what’s really right for him
Maybe I wasn’t right for him, and he wasn’t right for me.
We need two different things AT THE TIME, and maybe I will come to my senses one day when he will be long gone.
Still his love means a lot to me.
Because he is me; just a more connected person than me.
I’m still discovering what attracts me.
Only the Lord knows what is right for me, and he is not the one for me.
So I am going to keep praying and living and hoping to find that love just right for me, hopefully with the person that’s currently with me...
But if not, guess I’ll just keep doing me. ☺
Kb
Published 14th Mar 2013
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14th Mar 2013 5:07am
your words flow like sin
under my skin,
to no end.
But I love them just the same,
even the name
so you won't hear no complain ♥
under my skin,
to no end.
But I love them just the same,
even the name
so you won't hear no complain ♥
I like your style
your comforting words are worth while
and you keep my motivation up high.
plus you can make a poem out of anything
nd thats really entertaining me the way you can say anything makes my eyes and smile gleam with glee...
A new friend of me. Comment on my shit nd i'll return it gratefully thankfully* you became a faithful follower to me. KB :)
your comforting words are worth while
and you keep my motivation up high.
plus you can make a poem out of anything
nd thats really entertaining me the way you can say anything makes my eyes and smile gleam with glee...
A new friend of me. Comment on my shit nd i'll return it gratefully thankfully* you became a faithful follower to me. KB :)
14th Mar 2013 2:31pm
And there you go again ♥ Always pulling me in. As deep as a toke of life. As loyal as a loving wife. In this world where all we have is words. That can fly us high, as high as the birds :)
You Avid Follower,
Samatha, The Fallen, but not broken
You Avid Follower,
Samatha, The Fallen, but not broken
14th Mar 2013 8:21pm
"Anyone can write random thought on paper...but not everyone can connect those thoughts to fuel a soul."
A.Dorrah
A.Dorrah
14th Mar 2013 9:06pm
