I love you... I mean hate you

Holding hands from miles away, still so strong and yet so died... I see , feel and here you... And yet your not here, are you the one from my dreams... Or the demon that commands my ever so cold nightmares...  I am already a prisoner of fate and now you whant to condemn me in life... Where did this all go wrong, when did our love became a better mess? Why have you looked a way?... where you the one who sed you'll die for me? And now this?... I think about you... At times with all the hate in the world and other as a lost love... Your still in my dreams... I don't know why but I still see you... I don't know what to think... Maybe there was a good reason... But still left unsaid... Or was it me?... im just confuse about every thing.... I'm not going to lie... You really fuck my hed... I hate you... I think, I miss you I think... Dam met im still confused :/