Stuffed Greed

This is what I'm talking about
When my belly is full
I feel disgusting
I feel like making myself vomit
Because I don't deserve this
Because anyone else deserves a big meal with a loving family
Than I do
And this bloatting makes me feel even fatter
Than I probably am
And these thoughts racing through me
Making me dizzy
Nauseous
Whispering silently
Wishing for me to disappear
Hoping for me to disappear
Just like everyone else
Including me

Family
Let me starve
Let me bleed
Leave me to die
Please