Snowflakes On My Tongue

One by one, little white dots fall on my tongue  
Like snowflakes on a cold December afternoon  
I give me something to numb my pain  
Because happiness is a drug on backorder  
Swallowing them like a kid with candy drops  
Wash them down with a couple swigs of Jack  
Ah yes! That oh so familiar surging in my veins  
I feel indestructible; I can take your blows now  
You thought you’d break my heart? I just erased it  
Filling the cavity with feelings of temporary euphoria  
Carrying them in my pocket around like a Pez Dispenser  
One to wake up, and one to fall deep asleep  
One to take away pain, and one to keep me sane  
I wish it didn’t have to be this way, but it does  
Synthetic happiness in a capsule, swallowed whole  
Without them I’m drowning in a sea of my tears  
The angels aren’t here, like lifeguards with a life preserver  
Sinking on this titanic depression, clinging for life  
Let hell open up and swallow me whole!  
So here I am on this shitty winter morning  
Catching these white snowflakes on my tongue.