The Bitter End

If I was transparent
the world could see  
The little girl
and the lion in me
  
Sometimes i wonder
can god tell us apart?  
Does he see the anger
that blankets my heart?  
   
The light in me
slowly faded  
The price you pay
when all love is jaded
  
I am not at fault
my hands are clean  
Yet damage surrounds me
more is forseen  
   
Crumbling under the weight
of this head  
Starting to think
my angels are dead
  
The footprints of others
all over my skin  
My love not returned
tossed in the bin  
   
Boiling point
I don't even care  
I now look at life
with a cold hard stare
 
Blood of my blood
denying the shame  
Nobody's child
A borrowed name  
   
The edge creeping closer
with every breath  
Is it truth that sets you free
is it really death?
  
Buried inside this version of me  
Loosing my grip on reality  
 
Close to explosion
I am about to blow  
The rage inside leaking
A constant flow
  
If I could just hold on
until I go insane  
Set my mind free
make a stranger of pain  
   
I don't think I can
contain this blast  
Send my soul salvation
blank out the past
  
So sick and tired
this ageing struggle  
When i close my eyes
I see the piles of rubble
 
I fight back, get up
try and try some more  
It's always the same
I land face on the floor  
 
When you scream out
as I have done  
Take a good look
what I have become
  
As you beg for mercy
A desperate face  
Watch me walk away
you drown in disgrace  
 
It won't be long now
until the bitter end  
The moment has passed
to slow my descend
  
Why could nobody see
what I was worth?  
Faintly beating heart
abandoned at birth  
   
Now justice is just
an empty word  
I could have been saved
if my cries had been heard.