Pro Choice until...I had to make the choice

Sterile white walls
and smiling casual faces
to find such calmness
in this most unusual place  
 
Quiet Bright lights beaming
legs open wide
anesthesia numbing my fears
as of now  
I have nowhere to hide
My shame is evident
this outward manifestation of my wrong doings
all lead to this
 
3 to 5 minutes  
9 weeks of growth  
the humming of the machine
they said it would be easy
as easy as abortions go
 
But the sucking sounds
tore me
from my inner core
ripping life out of my womb
the baby we wanted  
but just a little soon
being drained away
secretly wishing  
it hadn't  had to be this way
 
 
Pro Choice, Pro Choice
what Ive always said
until today as I laid in that bed
I was pro choice
but I never had to make that choice
until now.