Afraid

Falling into the crowd.
I'm so easy to forget about.
Looks like you already did.
What can I say?

I'm not that great.
I'm not perfect.
I'm hideous.
I believe all these lies.

Trying to live a simple life.
Yet, it's all complicated.
Sometimes I wonder why.
Why I put up with all of this.

This pain is eating me slowly.
Not a single clue of what to do.
I'm slowly fading away.
Soon I will be just another forgotten girl.

Why am I even here?
I just live in fear.
I guess I'll never know.
What's it like to be good enough for you.

Most people would leave under this much stress.
I look to it for inspiration.
It helps me clear my mind.
All I have to say.

You better choose.
Her or I?
You're happy with her, but you love me.
She's your perfect girl as you say.

I am your imperfect love of your life as you say.
I feel like you're playing a game with my heart.
A game made for three.
A game I can only lose.
Never win.

It's okay I understand.
I'm not the best.
I'm the worst.
I just don't know how much more I can take.

I want to cut myself so badly.
I remember the promises I made.
I will keep them unlike you.
I'm not an inconsiderate tool.

This is the last time that'll forgive you.
Screw up again, I dare ya!
I'd be gone forever.
Gone with the wind.

It's something I have to do.
Never forget I love you.
I will surely miss you.