What You Don't Know

I will come to you, on the 24th day of our favorite month, October.
We will be happy to see each other.
We will be curious.
We will love.
You may wonder if I will have a change of heart.
You may wonder if I will be too nervous and consider changing my mind.

But maybe what you don't know is that nothing could keep me from you. I made up my mind a long time ago and nothing could sway me from our destined meeting.

I will come to you, on the 24th day of our favorite month, October.
You will claim me, that which is yours.
You will command and I will obey.
You will have me on my knees and I will show you respect, love and admiration.
You may wonder if I am second guessing my decision.
You may wonder at that time whether I am having a change of heart.

But maybe what you don't know is that I am powerless against the strong arms of destiny.  I cannot fight her.  So instead of growing weary from trying to escape destiny's clutches, I have relaxed in to her arms.  I embraced you, us, our shared destiny, a long time ago.

I will come to you, on the 24th day of our favorite month, October.
You will call me your whore.
You will mark me.
You will gag me me.
You will hurt me.
You may wonder if you are going too far.
You may wonder if I will run away if you take but one more step.

But maybe what you don't know is that I have an intense need to feed your darkness, to nourish it, and then for a short while to calm it, only to step in to it again when the next moment arises. Maybe you don't know that your darkness makes me wet...that it makes my cunt throb.  Maybe you don't fully understand that my need to dance with you in darkness matches your own need.

I will come to you, on the 24th day of our favorite month, October.
You will love me.
I will love you.
We will share love and intensity that can only be found in fairy tales.
We will make tender beautiful love together.
I will melt.
I will cry.
You may wonder at that time if your darkness is too much for me.
You may wonder if you can meet all of my needs.
You may fear that your darkness will corrupt my light.

But maybe what you don't know is that my need for your tender love is just as strong as my need for your harsh love.  Maybe what you don't know is that your love for me is so powerful...that it makes me so completely whole, so amazingly strong....that no matter how far you pull me in to the cold depths of darkness with you, I will always have the strength and desire to take your hand and crawl back in to the light to warm ourselves before we dive in to sin again.