Only hurting myself?

Selfish fuck, every one around me is a distraction!
The voice in my head screams to get high!!
The rest sounds like plea's,... filtered from a face I am holding a pillow over.
I don't want to see your face,  much less listen to you,
Hate me, cry for me, pray for me
But leave me alone while I choose dope.
I'll let you comfort me later when l am a used up pile of sweat and dehydration,
Money gone, dope gone, mind gone, soul gone.
Tell me you still love me, tell me I matter, tell me that you know I can quit.
Oh, wait, let me remove the pillow!

Smothered in my addiction you lay so quiet now.
I would check to see if your breathing but I am to busy stealing the atm card from your purse.
Good thing my addiction only hurts me!