accept

She crawled in skin
she, so fond of comfort
thrown away.
deep in earth
her lies
slowly spoken
her soft words rattled my mind
fragile bones
broken bones
her eyes glowing
her eyes showing
showing whatever she felt
at that moment
there is no happy
there is no childish loving game
her hand
sliding down my neck
the way she tried
not so hard
not so bad
not desperate
gleaming
in whatever she chose to dress
in a way
that had no meaning
a way
the girl who spoke to me
the person who accepted
I ran away
her hand
her nails perfect
sliding down my neck
why did I lie
Why did I say no
first christmas
first person
such a gift
a night could have been
another could
you waved to me everyday
never threw me away after
you knew
Why was it a no
why didnt I walk up to you
could have said hello
you thought it was nice to speak to me..
said it was nice being with me.
if words could explain
they would all be so complex
nothing I can say
in a manner to please
nothing to do
but simplify
it all
and hope it is the same
as when
we could be together
before the people started
before they would come to you
you so sweet
you so warm
so strong
if only I could promise
if only I could speak to you again
I would not let the worries pass through my face
would speak to you with a smile
your hands sliding down my neck
the feeling
I could have held