admiration

I past bye every day admiring
from a distance in my mind the
lovely est of words to say
yet my tongue has not release a single word to u
up to this day wondering in my mind
why am I so shy
why can't I be like the guy
who's at this moment staring into your eyes
making u blush an smile
while am hear just existing
the self destruction that am inflicting
upon myself every day by not telling you
how I really feel
the friend zone it seems
i will be in it
till this fear an shyness leaves.- swade