My First And Last Valentine

I wish I could describe my feelings for you
I sit in my house alone waiting for my moment
For something that's worth anything

When I thought I would finally have my first valentines
Day with a valentine
I woke up at five in the morning
And walked for an hour and a half
To see you

Still remembering the night before
Trying to figure out what I should get you as
A gift

When I finally saw you after waiting for two hours just
To see you

You barely looked at me
I had no idea how to give you your
Gift

I tried giving you a hug and you
Pushed me away
I asked what was wrong
And all you said was
That being you wasn't the best thing at the
Moment

Then you walked off and got on your bus
Then I knew had to somehow get
Your gift to you
So I walked four hours
To your school
I was going to wait the rest of the day
For you to come outside the school
So I could give it to you

But then I remembered
The other times I tried seeing you at your school
You either said what the fuck
Or why the hell are you

One of those times
I lied that I left my phone in front of your school
When it was in my pocket the whole time

I didn't want to annoy you with my presence
So I walked
Five and half hours back to my house

And the whole way back I kept
Remembering that I love you and
Nothing can change that ever

But I feel like
I'm just annoying you so I will get out of your
Way and others way
Permanently...