Reaching up for God

I looked into the mirror and saw nothing but the abyss of my drug blown pupils the blackhole of my addiction
My soul fell uncontrollably into it  
I dove head first into the hidden shadows of my being 
I had nothing to grasp but the darkness surrounding me
I do not believe it had a bottom 
Two options left 
To continue into this  living death
Or reach up out of it
I am reaching
God take my hand