When You're a Junkie Anything Can Be Justified.

We’re often asked, “Why dope?” This question is not easily answered, most of the time we don't have any idea but we can’t stop. After a while its just life, you can’t live with the drugs.. but you can’t live without them even more. We get high because the world’s uncomfortable, uninteresting and unbearable. Always.

When your girlfriend notices the track marks you’ve been attempting to conceal with long sleeve shirts and jackets, simply tell her this-- We get high to cope or to forget, we get high to think or to stop thinking, we get high to relate to others or maybe we don’t want to relate at all. We get high to fit in, or we get high because we’ve blended in too much. We get high to feel something, and sometimes to feel nothing at all. But most of the time we get high because we’re empty, and we’re empty because we’re missing something.. the key to being a functional member of society. We're lacking the necessary coping skills to live productive lives and with a little justification, we're okay with that. We've convinced ourselves these drugs help us blend in, act like them, think like them and live life they way everyone else does.

Except with our irregular pupils, our track marks and slurred speech, we aren’t very functioning or blended whatsoever. And yet multiple times a day I’m able to easily convince myself that my blacked out eyes, unsteady hands, nervous heart and all these racing thoughts have absolutely no effect on how well I’m able to function in society. All of the things I tell myself are fallacies but I’m capable of believing them regardless. Junkie justification; it’s our must powerful weapon against our own common sense and comprehension of what it means to be healthy and productive.

Anything can be justified, when you’re a junkie.