Restless

I am broken and bended,
Totally not myself.
In this corner I stay
Melting haltingly like a candle.

I want to hide myself
from shame and depravedness.
But I want to get out
from being too restless.

I crave for peace of mind,
an epitome of paradise.
So tired and weary as I am,
I still wish to continue and fight.

Fight for placidity.
Fight for love and homage.
Wade through an endless journey
and continue to live and love.

But tonight I surrender.
I am not myself.
I could not fight
nor continue breathing.

I don't want to fight,
Not now.
'Cause as for now,
All I want is to be okay.

Yes, I want to be myself again.
I just want to be okay.