Frozen in stone

At times i feel completely alone
Stuck with this feeling
Frozen in stone
All day in my room
Unwilling to move
Letting all these thoughts consume
So many fucking tears I've cried
The death of you
Has buried me alive
It's been four years
I still can't cope
Absent minded times
when I still pick up the phone
Do you hear me calling
I'm screaming your name
Never getting an answer
I'm going insane
You gave up on life
You gave up on me
Why was it so easy
Fucking coward, you pussy
I held your hand as you took your last breath
looked deep into your eyes
And with you I watched a part of me die

I miss you daddy