Elegy

This will not last forever.
A silent elegy in my head.
It's terrible when you're clever
Because you always end up dead
Such a waste of a young mind
I start to let go
My will starts to decline
Down a path that does not glow

The trees can be heard
As the wind dances so gracefully through them
I wonder what is next to occur
I sit hoping, my mind will mend
The air so warm
I can barely think
These elegies pierce my ears

I'm cringing now
I'm worthless without hope
I'm hopeless
I can't escape
Let me the fuck out
I can't be sleeping
I'm screaming
I'm bleeding

It feels so good for my crimson joy to drip
I can't stop this
I'm gone now
Selfish, self-centered
I could careless
My voice starts to crack
As my screaming gets louder

I have lost track of time
I can't take back what's mine
Hear my cry
Because I plan to die
The pain sets in
And it feels so good
A masochist
An Aethiest
So simplistic,
Unrealistic...

I hate myself
What have I done?
Images races through my head
I fall to my knees
My core starts to give away
I break away
I fade away
I cannot live another day

So weak
So quick
It must end
I must be dead

This silent elegy
It blackens me
Now projected,
It can be heard
I have been heard
But not saved
My body shakes,
For death I crave

Here I stand
Here I break
My wrists bleeding
I am a heathen
Take me away
Release me from my pain
This has to be a sick game
A vicious circle
A final hurdle
Kill me
I wish for death