"Darkness"

I clench my fists and reach them to an unseen sky ,
alone in the dark I wonder if here i'll die ~
Unable to move but I yearn to be free ,
no matter what I do this darkness always follows me ~
The sun will rise but I will fall again ,
never ending cycle i'm at witz end ~
These thoughts of suicide take me by the hand ,
feeling better off dead but no one understands ~
I'm a pile of mess covered up by skin ,
and the rest of my being rots away within ~
Resentment and anger directed at myself ,
I am the creator i have made this shell ~
On the outside I look strong and wild ,
but on the inside I feel like a hopeless child ~
After all the pain darkness followed ,
leaving me numb and my heart hallow ~
There is no medicine for what I have ,
when i'm at peace is when i'll be glad ~ B.