The Quickest Way to See Me Run

 
He tried to set the mood  
music playing,  
lights dimmed.  
He'd thought this through  
 
and I was terrified!  
 
Taking my hand,  
stroking my face,  
I trembled.  
I didn't want this...  
 
wasn't ready  
 
for it to be over.  
 
I tried to distract him.  
Changing the subject,  
commenting on the songs.  
I was obnoxious  
and knew it.  
 
I was making him work too hard  
when it should come easy.  
An exciting moment couples rush into.  
He was trying,  
and I was ruining everything.  
   
My guilt did not overtake my fear.  
 
He was so many things I'd been waiting to find.  
Affectionate, wildly fun, protective,  
Funny, comfortable.  
I could be myself.  
 
Yet I hesitate.  
 
I could feel it all about to drift away.  
Those three words would seal us  
and then no more effort would have to be made.  
 
Neglect and pain has always followed  
"I love you".