I love to say fuck

oh won't the dark just swallow me up now, i've been sitting in it so long i'm rooted in its apathy.
fuck when did i get like this,
or have i always been like this?
i wouldn't know would i?
i've always resided alone so no long-time friends can tell me if there was a time when i was happy.
maybe there never was.
fuck, what are those things called...in harry potter those gray things that suck the life out of you?
dementions? dementors! yeah those bastards would starve seeping life from me.
my ears ache from the ringing.
bells always accompany my mania.
probably something to do with that head injury.
fuck can't i just go to sleep!
my hands are bleeding
trying to dig my way out of this fucking grave
bastards sealed me with concrete
scared of vampires are you?
bitches i'm not dead yet
i thought i knew you
but i don't and it doesn't matter because you didn't bring me a shovel ho.
someone get me out of here!
someone save me from the darkness
someone
save my soul!