Relapse

Fall into the ocean of dark red
that pulsates through blue veins
that are cut in half.
 
Slice up the lies and open up
Pandora's box.
 
I'm relapsing into a dark pleasure
that I promised everyone I wouldn't
dive into again.
 
I'm accepting in the dark words that
I pretended I wasn't ever going to believe
again but in the end I am breathing
them in as if they're oxygen.
 
I keep relapsing because I can't heal my
wounds alone.
 
I keep relapsing because I don't want to
try anymore.
 
I keep relapsing because I want to die.