Secrets...

I want to inspire.
I was raped when I was six.
I pretend to be cool and confident when I'm really not
I love acting because I don't like to be myself.
I don't think I truely know who I am inside.
I let guys use me because I think I deserve it.
I'm insane and have multiple personalities.
I drink and use drugs to escape my endlessly ticking head.
I feel free only in my dreams and when singing.
I've never been in love.
I wish I was a virgin again so I could actually "give" it away to someone special.
I'm scared.
I am a freak.
I'm crying right now.
I am scared of people, especially men.
I can't sleep at night because of the nightmares about him.
I think I'm going to die young.
I wish I had more courage.
But I smile for everyone else.
I'm still alive.