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Rainbows, Lollipops, and FUCK YOU.
[ This is a small excerpt from an autobiography I wrote ]
Around the time I was about to be 14, our dog Sioux died. We abused him so much. No one cared about anyone or anything, everyone was so lost in themselves, and we let the dog starve in a cage. No one ever walked him, he always yelped and we screamed for him to shut up and we’d smack him or shake the cage roughly to scare him. He died due to starvation, I discovered his body when I was bringing him food. He’d been dead for a day and I’d just gotten home from my dad’s. His death was blamed on me, my mom called me a monster and a killer and asked me if I was proud of myself. I still feel like a monster since that day for killing something and taking away it’s innocence just like Lee and Darrell had done to me. I decided then that I was a monster.
Around the time I was about to be 14, our dog Sioux died. We abused him so much. No one cared about anyone or anything, everyone was so lost in themselves, and we let the dog starve in a cage. No one ever walked him, he always yelped and we screamed for him to shut up and we’d smack him or shake the cage roughly to scare him. He died due to starvation, I discovered his body when I was bringing him food. He’d been dead for a day and I’d just gotten home from my dad’s. His death was blamed on me, my mom called me a monster and a killer and asked me if I was proud of myself. I still feel like a monster since that day for killing something and taking away it’s innocence just like Lee and Darrell had done to me. I decided then that I was a monster.
Published 10th Dec 2012
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10th Dec 2012 3:58pm
You never told me this about you from your past...
You're not a monster, Cinny, what happened to you in your past doesn't make you a cruel person. You were a child who spent so long just wanting to die and forget, it's not your fault alone that the dog died. Your parents should've helped, should've fed him, this isn't on the head of the girl who was raped and abused and left alone for nearly her entire life so far.
You're not a monster Cinny, you're an amazing and kind woman.
You're not a monster, Cinny, what happened to you in your past doesn't make you a cruel person. You were a child who spent so long just wanting to die and forget, it's not your fault alone that the dog died. Your parents should've helped, should've fed him, this isn't on the head of the girl who was raped and abused and left alone for nearly her entire life so far.
You're not a monster Cinny, you're an amazing and kind woman.
10th Dec 2012 5:19pm
10th Dec 2012 4:48pm
I don't believe in lying just to have something to say, so, believe me when I say I read this a couple times and got very choked up. I'm a mom, and I have a place in my heart for every child in the world. I'm so sorry you had to go through what you did, and I echo egoist in saying none of that was your fault.
Having said all that, this was very well written. I wouldn't be surprised to see the full manuscript on a store bookshelf one day
-Jess
Having said all that, this was very well written. I wouldn't be surprised to see the full manuscript on a store bookshelf one day
-Jess
10th Dec 2012 5:19pm
Thank you very much, Jess. I one day hope to be a writer and share my story to inspire other girls like me to follow their dreams.
10th Dec 2012 7:27pm
No you don't have to hope to be a writer, Rainbow! You ARE a writer. Again, great work
10th Dec 2012 7:33pm
