Guy in the mirror, I hate you

I hate it
The figure that always appears in the mirror
It isn't me
I don't deserve it
A figure strong and proud

I hate it
I despise it
I don't want to be him
The one in the mirror
That bastard who lies to himself

Always saying its ok
They didn't mean it
They don't understand
I don't want to be loved
I want to pass

I want to be able to leave
And have no one notice
I don't want people to care
No one should ever care

I'm worthless
Pointless
Lifeless

If only I could find something that I wanted
Something that I needed
Something that will show me who I am

but alas
Here it is
A beautiful girl
But every time I hear those words
"I love you"

It was a knife
Cutting my skin
I hate myself
My face
My body
My heart

I hope when its finally over
It all just burns
And rots
So no one can have it
A heart that actually cares