don't ask, don't tell

the things I hated
I’ve learned to love
wrapped up in my secret games

don’t ask
don’t ask
don’t ask

and today, like every other day
he didn’t ask
and I am saved from having
to bare my darkness
for his eyes to see
my desire to confess overpowered
only by my desire to hide
behind my defences

he’s a little lost boy
wandering alone in the dark
with more secrets then sense
and I’ve morphed into someone
I can’t bear to show him
just as he can't bear to show me
his darkness inside

we can never be vulnerable
never let anyone see our tender sides
like pirates with double eye patches
we stumble through life
praying no one will look too deeply
behind the masks we’ve learned to wear

hand in mine, we tip toe
through this endless night
with a dawn that never breaks the horizon
and I’m grateful for his traits
his complete lack of curiosity
that I used to hate
because I couldn’t bear for him
to see me as this
a player without a heart
to break

-Eve-