To You, My Love, My New Life

I'll choke on these words before I swallow.
Although I've become so hollow..
Although this world has pushed me till the end.
I love you more than I can stand.
I've said this all before but, this, I cannot ignore.
My finger to the trigger
Mind expanded... to this god damned forsaken high.
The tears... I let seep from my eyes.
Suicide written deep in my skin.
My mind set to die.
But, you...
You read between the lines.
Made me think before I said goodbye.

Drowning in an abyss was I.
I wallowed in my past tense fixations.
My mind ached and I just traced another vein.
But you...
You saw something deep within my blackened heart.
Looked beyond my scars,
beyond all my insecurities,
beyond all of what I had endured.
But, you were not blind.

You found something in me.
Saw my inner light.
To you it seemed to shine bright.
But, to I it was dim and slowly fading.
You brought me to life.
Gave me a mirror to see how broken I had become.
Face to face with I.
My reflection made me so numb.

You took the blade from my hand..
You wiped away every tear I have shed.
You saw me as something beautiful...
I thought you were blind
But, you showed me my inner light.
Saved me from this life...
Saved me from I.

I thought I was blind.
I thought it was my time to die.
To me everyday before you was grey.
I could predict my own future
Everyday the same...
My mind was so numb.. so desolate.. so cold.

How you saved me I'll never know.
How you saw me through my false happiness.
How you knew my every intention.
How you could feel the same pain as I.
And how you can look me in the eyes and describe something beautiful..
I'll never ponder apon again.

I'll just look into those eyes.
Their beauty haunts me every night.
How invigorating.. how exhilarating you are is what keeps me alive.
Knowing you care, knowing your not all a lie is something I'll no longer deny.
I love you so...
You bring tears to my eyes.
All the words you say I'll treasure in my mind.
With you by my side, I'll never want to die.
I'd sell my soul to be with you one last night.
But, to live a life without you... I would rather die.

You leave me feeling so high.
Your eyes make me feel almost paralyzed.
Your voice soothes all the sound scratching at my ears.
Your touch has healed every inch of skin i've peeled.
Your kiss my new fixation.

With you this heart ache is mended.
Stitched together and ready to begin again.
A raven with broken wings now has her own way to fly
Her own way out of a darkened life.
Through you she can see again.
And through you she wants to be again.