to my 18years daughter

Dear JANE
sometimes you regret am your dad and i know,
all the wrongs and sadness you had of me it did show,
switch off that pretence that things are good cos' it glow
even when the light disappear you better than me in every row.
Mum wasn't ever there for you
while am a drunk and you ashamed, i see your view
every single second i live made me a ghost
cos' without her this worlds is not worthy as my host
but still for you even on my fifteenth sip of ethanol
i recall i have a princess at home and run off the rest of alcohol
and sometimes i ain't even who really i am
then i look at you and smile of who you became
far from me
far from we
drunks and gambles not proud to have as fathers
but every time we escape this world glad is cos' of our lovely daughters....

Am not married yet
but i pray my future kids in me see no regret,
i shall be a father one day
so before then if am not worthy of that name i hope you see this page
written ain't about how we feel today
or what we felt yesterday
its the best medium to tell our future how we felt someday.

DARL,
DADDY LOVES YOU
AND I PROUD YOU WISE TO MAKE THE WISE DECISION.

You have a lover now you say
congrats am glad for you
give him a kiss for me everyday
but make the best as you've always made me see in your point of views