Time Will Tell

This lighter burned deeper holes in my lungs than first thought
The wounds still wide open and gushing
So many thoughts drifting aimlessly around my head
Scars, show through all the masquerades I keep putting on
All the kind words everyone said hopelessly trying to change my direction
I trek deeper hoping it will soon just be a distant memory
I can’t help but keep getting side tracked off the path
The old familiar trail seems so hard to forget
No matter how much encouragement everyone keeps giving me
I keep stumbling back onto this worn path
I’ve gone down it far too many times, my foot prints are visible
This worn path so comforting but also just a painful reminder of what almost was
Or what could have been.
Will I ever get out of this dark forested path, that I keep stumbling on to,
Back into the light of encouragement?
Or have I traveled down it so many times it’s just too hard to forget?
I will remember this path for the rest of my life, but will I be able to forget it when I need to?
Dark chasm in my soul, or just a distant memory of hard times?
Time will tell soon enough.