ideation

getting that feeling  
that i might  
 hurt my self   a gain  
   
all the    
wonderful things i'd do  
 de doobedy do  
with meat scissors  
carvery knivery  
   
   
(the cleaver?  
isn't that going too far?)  
   
i LOVE this sickness!  
 sorry
- if it's wrong to say it  
but  
it's like  
a laugh is  
  bubbubbling  
   
 nearly boiling  
in side of meee  
   hahaha  
with the fear-lies  
and the    
no i'd never...  
...would i?  
   
(...eee lips is  
just for effect  
   kissxkiss)  
   
but it IS the truth,  
  ...  
that it's all so  
verrray funny  
 things like your face  
when you see what i wrote on the wall  
 
 
   
so goddambloody FUNNY  
  and hush hshhh  
i'd never tell    
anyone    
           but  
            you