Hidden.

I slip out of the crowd,
and into my dark room.
I don't dare flip on the switch,
light reminds me of you.

Besides, I need not to see,
for the deed I am to do.
Fingers fumble in the darkness,
you'd never know my eyes were blue.

It seems they've faded gray,
sunken in my skull.
When I grasp what I've been looking for,
they grow a shade more dull.

That sliver of steel in my hand,
it opens up my memories.
Maybe I can't do it,
this isn't how it seems.

As I drag it across my skin,
I swim a sea of doubt.
She comes into my mind once more,
this is not what love's about.

So I open up my jewelry box,
replace my weaponry.
I flick on the light,
tonight I need not bleed....