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you left me all alone here
didn't even turn to say goodbye
a shadow passed by my life
and took away this fake happiness
you shouldn't even try to explain now
obviously it didn't fit your taste
i was something that you didn't see
nothing but a piece of trash to you
so don't smile and ask about my day
or how i'm feeling right now
you didn't care about me from the start
so don't pretend to care now
you left me wounds and scars
i'm still licking the blood from yesterday
don't pretend to laugh at my jokes
or smile when something good happens to me
you are nothing to me
i don't care about the tears
i wont show sympathy to your cause
or feign compassion for your sorrows
i'll laugh whenever you say "i love you"
spit when you tell me sorry for your actions
i don't believe any of your lies
you never believed the truth from my mouth
never showed interest in my goals and dreams
only talked about you, you, and you
didn't show any regret or shame
not until the day i left all of you
weren't even concerened that i was spiraling down
digging a hole and you choose to ignore
punished me for my thoughts and opinions
hated my way of thinking outside the box
turned me away when all i wanted was recognition
said you were too busy for my troubles
i'm grown and you can't control me now
shut up and listen to my side for once
instead of babbling about what i did wrong
you don't know the shit that's gone through my mind
or how bad i feel inside at random moments
you don't understand how deep you've injured me
how you helped dig my grave
how you twisted my mind
destroyed the little boy i was
replaced him with a broken soul
a distant youth
a scared spirit
a cautios letter
an outsider to the world
i don't give you the respect anymore
i don't look at you anymore
you were once my mother
but now an ugly whore