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Fluctuations
I construct a me; huge, made of every expectation that floats in my eggshell head. Cells woven together, bound by some invisible desire for impression,
build up and up and up,
And suddenly I am one hundred feet tall and staring down at the world. I am who I have created, this identity is me.
But I demolish me. I exfoliate the dirt in the skin of my body of ambition and take the rubble and turn it into me, again. But it is different now.
This isn't me, this is me, this isn't me.
What sort of malleable shell am I, that I am nothing and everything at once?
What is identity, what is personality?
A plastic, moulded and remoulded by altering ambition. There is no you, no me.
There is everything we are in one time, and everything we try to be.
build up and up and up,
And suddenly I am one hundred feet tall and staring down at the world. I am who I have created, this identity is me.
But I demolish me. I exfoliate the dirt in the skin of my body of ambition and take the rubble and turn it into me, again. But it is different now.
This isn't me, this is me, this isn't me.
What sort of malleable shell am I, that I am nothing and everything at once?
What is identity, what is personality?
A plastic, moulded and remoulded by altering ambition. There is no you, no me.
There is everything we are in one time, and everything we try to be.
Published 21st Oct 2012
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21st Oct 2012 11:35pm
Very deep.. Some of the same questions I've asked myself time after time. Very good work and very descriptive. Nice job!
22nd Oct 2012 6:47pm
28th Oct 2012 11:34pm
Not to get to personal, but this sounds like depression or teetering on the edge of a fall into the darkness of mental illness. I've been there, still go there every now and again, and I can definitely relate to the feeling of non-existence and malleableness of being and not being ones self, as though we ever have any real idea of who we are. It's a deep rabbit hole whose end is madness. Don't go too deep.
A thoughtful piece, that has piqued my thoughtfulness maybe a little more than it needs to be piqued.
Well done. :)
Peace, Indie
A thoughtful piece, that has piqued my thoughtfulness maybe a little more than it needs to be piqued.
Well done. :)
Peace, Indie
29th Oct 2012 11:26am
On the personal side, I sincerely appreciate your concern/advice, it is lovely of you to be so thoughtful.
It's more that I am just completely fascinated by the fact that we as people have the capacity to alter our entire selves based on what we want to be. The reality is to me that given a long enough period of time, we can turn ourselves from one person into a completely different one. The fact that that means that we are never actually fixed people in that sense just really fascinates me.
Thank you very much. :)
It's more that I am just completely fascinated by the fact that we as people have the capacity to alter our entire selves based on what we want to be. The reality is to me that given a long enough period of time, we can turn ourselves from one person into a completely different one. The fact that that means that we are never actually fixed people in that sense just really fascinates me.
Thank you very much. :)
29th Oct 2012 12:10pm
I agree the human mind is fascinating and given the time and circumstances we can completely reinvent ourselves, yet I don't believe we can completely erase who we were, there will always be something however small or insignificant that remains unchanged. I do agree we are malleable, and life as we go along changes us, who we are as children or teenagers isn't the same person we are when we grow old and die. People, experiences, random moments in our lives, they can all change the path we thought we were walking on. Nothing in life is fixed, except death.
There is a saying that if we knew what we are capable of we would literally astound ourselves and I believe that is true. We can only see so far ahead.
And thank you, for giving me something worth reading and musing over :)
There is a saying that if we knew what we are capable of we would literally astound ourselves and I believe that is true. We can only see so far ahead.
And thank you, for giving me something worth reading and musing over :)
9th Nov 2012 9:04am
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