darkness inside

tears fall like raindrops
from a soul filled with fear
fear of darkness within
both far and so near

Darkness shrouded
by a smiling face
living in turmoil
the pain that i face

Granting the pain
to do as its dark deed
my body and mind
succumb to its greed

it takes me down deeper
to fear and to shame
depths i cant fathom
as i feel its dark reign

life as i know it
may soon cease to be
for the pain that laid dormant
is now free in me

it ravages corners
and every inch of my soul
it tears me to shreds
with a heart black as coal

this pain is alive
i can feel it within
my spirit not willing
to try and stop it again

i give in to pleasure
that is twisted and dark
this pain thats within
will soon leave its mark

the mark that it leaves
will be what it does crave
the mark on my tombstone
as i lay in my grave

in this grave of my doings
that i choose to be
for allowing this torture
to fester in me

life holds no meaning
when hate fear and pain
are seething inside you
with no good to gain

so come now the sickness
that i so doth crave
and swallow my body
within your dark grave

dont cry for me
as i lay in the ground
i live now in peace
that in life was not found

i hold no more fear
no pain or no hate
i lay still in victory
with death as my mate

crying eyes no more here
my tears are now dried
as i lay in the darkness
that i lived with inside

my soul is not hurting
my fear is now gone
as my lifeblood stops flowing
in the life of new dawn

a dawn of beginning
of a new shining sun
only seen by the departed
of wich i am now one