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Uncertain
I've realized I've been searching for love my entire life
Trying to fill those voids that my father left empty and my mother left half filled
See at some point I became optimistic for her
Time just ran out for me and him though
But as he and I grow
to become better men outside those uncharted roads
hoping our sons and daughters don't have to witness
Nor feel
The emptiness of how two individuals could create a seed to flourish above concrete decisions
and yet live so free
Where's my liberty?
Then again
Ones addiction and the others encryption
inside my chromosomes I deemed never to do drugs reminiscent of my mother and vowed never to be absent like my father's perfect fatherless description
but I forgot he played on women and that's just one similarity I really couldn't get away from
out of however many days he was here
Too few to count
And arithmetic had never been my favorite subject
I try to imagine how junior feels
I couldn't tell you if it's the dealer or the cutter
But in this game of life the hand I was dealt should have really been a misdeal
And now my brother drinks like he's looking for a message in the bottom of the bottle
It's in that state he finds joy
I just wonder when he finally reads it
it wills signatures of those obstacles he faced as a boy
Maybe he'll find something for the both of us
Like a hidden letter filled with encouraging words from my sister
stating how she is standing near the both of us
Touching all seven of us
Unlikely though
I question if it was suppose to rain for 30 seconds today through a blue sky
With a night so dark I guess it was suppose to make me feel like a new guy
Only if you knew why
I been probing for love inside Hurt Inn
Not knowing until the beginning of this year
each one of you women were just buckets I dropped my tears in
minus one of you
that love we experienced was really true
Now I'm
Recognizing that together my brother
We'll share this time to toast to that good life we dream of
Hell. . . . . . . . . . . cheers then
12 cans of beers
facing apes inside a bears den
The lining of my-self image has blurred
I feel there's no reason for me to care when
No one else did . . . . . . . . I became a lost youth
No found man
Still learning to be swollen with pride
Just understand
I've been penetrating love my entire life
Hopefully the realization will spread
I'm at the edge
Catch me
PUSHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Trying to fill those voids that my father left empty and my mother left half filled
See at some point I became optimistic for her
Time just ran out for me and him though
But as he and I grow
to become better men outside those uncharted roads
hoping our sons and daughters don't have to witness
Nor feel
The emptiness of how two individuals could create a seed to flourish above concrete decisions
and yet live so free
Where's my liberty?
Then again
Ones addiction and the others encryption
inside my chromosomes I deemed never to do drugs reminiscent of my mother and vowed never to be absent like my father's perfect fatherless description
but I forgot he played on women and that's just one similarity I really couldn't get away from
out of however many days he was here
Too few to count
And arithmetic had never been my favorite subject
I try to imagine how junior feels
I couldn't tell you if it's the dealer or the cutter
But in this game of life the hand I was dealt should have really been a misdeal
And now my brother drinks like he's looking for a message in the bottom of the bottle
It's in that state he finds joy
I just wonder when he finally reads it
it wills signatures of those obstacles he faced as a boy
Maybe he'll find something for the both of us
Like a hidden letter filled with encouraging words from my sister
stating how she is standing near the both of us
Touching all seven of us
Unlikely though
I question if it was suppose to rain for 30 seconds today through a blue sky
With a night so dark I guess it was suppose to make me feel like a new guy
Only if you knew why
I been probing for love inside Hurt Inn
Not knowing until the beginning of this year
each one of you women were just buckets I dropped my tears in
minus one of you
that love we experienced was really true
Now I'm
Recognizing that together my brother
We'll share this time to toast to that good life we dream of
Hell. . . . . . . . . . . cheers then
12 cans of beers
facing apes inside a bears den
The lining of my-self image has blurred
I feel there's no reason for me to care when
No one else did . . . . . . . . I became a lost youth
No found man
Still learning to be swollen with pride
Just understand
I've been penetrating love my entire life
Hopefully the realization will spread
I'm at the edge
Catch me
PUSHED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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