Suicide

As i stand observing heavens portal
I feel a sense of dauntlessness to whats my faith
from this point, I reminice my life onto this day the day that i died.
Lets see....
Where to begin?

Ah, my childhood.
Father: drug addict drunk

Mother: always angry takes it out on me but yet she loved me i know it.

Elementary school oh yes those days I was always derided for wearing glasses.

Middle school i met the love of my life there Ramon Perez, being with Ramon was the best thing that has ever happened to me his Fidelity Flawless.
at first, you were so timorous then you started getting more comfortable with me.
oh Ramon I haden't quite figured you our your so uncanny and thats good you spice things up in my world. 

The day i left you, last night I lost a part of me. i was no longer clamorously cheerful like I am or arguing with you like I always do i was alone utterly alone. I became sullenly lazy. All my hopes and dreams of growing old with you being your wife having your child Vanished! i had no reason to live anymore. 

I was wrong, I never do this Ramon admit to my mistakes but here it is  I Was Wrong. I said I was bored of you but the real thing is that I am so bored and tired of not living with you. 

I Died with Killing myself Ramon i died when I left you the thought of not having you was unbearablr.

I stand at the portal and take one last breath and exept my fate.
Down i go Down to the depths of hell oh how i fall and it never ends.
Down.
Sorry I failed you Ramon I do love you and i realize this now. I Love You!






The good thing about this is that this is what could have happened Last night......