Unloved

I am unloved
Unwanted
I am undesirable
My family
Will never accept me
They never have accepted me
They never even loved me
I made a friend
Just one
But it's kind if pathetic
Because they don't give a shit
About me either
I tried so hard to find someone to love me
And i did
For a little while i felt loved,
Understood, accepted
Cared for
But
Then
They
Died
And now im all alone again
I have fake friends,
All faux
But it feels so much better
Than being completely and utterly alone
Id rather have lots of plastic friends
Who pretend to like me
Then just be
By myself
All over again.
I am uncared for,
And dead on the inside.
I have no reason to
Live anymore.
No reason for anything.