Mechanical Me

Am I inhuman?
I think I lost my heart
I can't feel anything
only mental emotions

This is what it's like?
Not to love, not to hurt
I can't stand it
this is worst

I am a soulless freak
a machine
Where is my humanity?
Where is my being?

I can't crave those lips
I want to, I need to
but I only strive
for nothingness, not you

Who took my heart
and broke my emotions?
Why is it a struggle
to feel them?