Tarnished youth

Bedtime stories yeah those were the best
But these nitemares continue to weigh heavy
On my chest.
Have you ever heard the selient voice
Of little girls being raped,I was once Her

Can we trade places for a moment
Hide inside my heart & feel wat I feel
Everyday I wake up to memories I
Wish werent real
Feels like my faith is being tested,and its hard
To find help.

So i'll put my childhood next to my womanhood
For sale on the shelf
I'll trade these dolls and even my dresses
If for just once I can leave HELL
And feel a piece of HEAVEN..

You ask how can a child be stressed so yung
Imagine being scared to play dressup &
Wear mommies makeup for fun..

I was just a small child believing in dreams
But one night my fairytale was tarnished
And the MAN resembles my reflection
How could that be.
My mother said suck it up ,and so i did.

I wanna know what kinda HEartLeSs BITCH
Says that to her own kid
I bare these SCARS
She says their lessons learned

Tried to wash them off
The more i did it burned
Tried to tune it out
The more i did the more rough he was
Tried to cover it up
But this blemish was there
Tried to act numb,but felt it in my heart

Wanted to listen to the voices
Who said hurt your self
He's stealing your wealth
Then mommie finally spoke to me
And said ask for Oral it hurts LESS