My Demon of Love

I want to run
I try to scream
Wake me up from this fucking dream
My demon has found me
For this I can't hide
He's the demon that posesses me
Deep down inside

I've tried to get away
From his sin that fills my veins
I tried prayers to God
And flights on airplanes
These pills I must swallow
To suppress these demononic feelings
They only mask my love for sin
Without dealing or healing

How can I rid my heart
Of this demon so old
His words are recited
"To have and to hold"
For he is my demon
He has all control
His memories cut me deep
Right down to my soul

My outlet to speak
Is deep underground
Words left unspoken
Until noone's around
Our actions forbidden
By those that we love
Satan's whip cracks my soul
Where's God up above?

I must repent
This sin that I live
But the devil burns my soul
No mercy to give
This demon awaits me
His fiery grin
I can't even fight him
This love made of sin