Untitled... for now.

     Broken, she sits, tears streaming down her face.  Longing for how things were, she feels the regret that comes with all bad choices.  Each tear is a thought for with each thought another tear is released making her internal pain finally visible… to the vacant room.
    Forgive and forget.  Forgiving is the easy part, she concludes.  It’s the forgetting that’s difficult… Would it change things?
    If only she could go back, but there are no second chances.   No do-overs.  However, just maybe she’d be lucky enough to be forgiven.  Pain stabs her chest at the thought that she could lose… No! It can’t happen… Her thoughts wander as she argues with herself, again. Oh, but it can…
    No, I won’t let it. She can’t listen. She won’t. For now, she must hope that it won’t change anything.  She never wanted to hurt anyone.  It hadn’t occurred to her that things might take an unexpected route.  Alas, unexpected barely begins to describe it, and she has suddenly found herself very alone.  
    Lost in the pitiful hopes that one day she could get her back.  Her best friend.  The only person who had ever understood her.   Of course, she had to go and ruin the only good thing in her life.  Why must I ruin everything?  It was hopeless. She was a hopeless cause no matter how much she tried to convince herself otherwise.
    If only…